#sometimes it's so isolating

[ley-med]

I had a week long vacation not long ago, so I finally have enough energy to talk to non-medical friends once again. And I just realized once again, I'm not sure how to talk to them.

They tell me all the things they participated in, and I'm truly happy for them, all the while thinking I would never have half that much energy. They ask me how I am, I tell them I'm good, finally had a vacation. What did I do? Oh, literally nothing, tried to sleep off the worst of the exhaustion and tried to avoid interaction with other humans. How's work? You know, just the usual, it's good. It is good, and I love it, but how could I tell them all the horrors witnessed? That's right I don't, but what else do I have left to talk about? Most of my fun work stories are tainted with the shadows of tragedies... And unfortunately, I wouldn't trade it for anything.

So I just read their cheerful message and leave it on read, contemplating what to answer. And just hope they won't take offence to my agonizingly slow replies...

[wicktalks]

lauraryder // of age - the frights // damaged goods - the narcissist cookbook // fat funny friend - maddie zahm // black box warning - leanna firestone // cough it out - the front bottoms // mellowmash33 // the ramblings of a lunatic - bears in trees // prologue - chase petra // fiona apple // critical role - sam riegel // conversations with friends - sally rooney // on lonliness - dante émile

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Conceal, don't feel, don't let it show.

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[shallowseeker]

5x03 & 11x21

[whirlpool-blogs]

hey remember when the vibes were so off in plymouth that quentin musty called his dad to come pick him up?? idk what could have possibly tipped him off tbh...

was it greg cronin's underage street fighting classes? is it the fact that your parents have to sign over legal guardianship and power of attorney to billet parents? the same billets who receive monthly checks from USA Hockey and therefore have it in their best interest to keep receiving those checks?

was it when they forced 15- and 16-year-olds to dress and undress in the public hallways of the USA Hockey Arena for a month until they "earned" the right to privacy? you know, those hallways that have security cameras up in the corners? but don't worry about that. the NTDP staff has plenty of experience of storing, editing, and streaming hours and hours of footage of their boys!

not that the kids have anyone to complain to, really! after all, after the Jack Hughes class the NTDP switched to 100% online school instead of regular high schools like Plymouth High or Northville High where there are, oh I don't know, mandated reporters who aren't also paid by USA Hockey, or god forbid other kids they might befriend outside of the hockey bubble.

what could possibly go wrong or unreported in a system like that? ha ha! surely not USA Hockey, who hired Brad Aldrich AFTER his sexual abuse scandal with the Blackhawks! surely not NTDP, which emphasizes "breaking down the individuality" for the incoming 15-year-olds!

(not my own words, of course. words from beloved NTDP founding member and pillar Kirk Culik, the man responsible for team and culture building, player mentoring, and off-ice conditioning for 20+ years, whose only qualifications pre-NTDP seem to be boxing coach/thoroughbred horse trainer/corrections officer, and who was later charged of murdering a 16-year-old boy)

again. i don't know what musty was possibly talking about. this is a totally normal place to make teenagers change

[philyuri]

not to demon post but like. sometimes i think about the "friends" label and the fact that it's a little bit of a haha in-joke but also... i mean. when dan said he didnt have a best friend for the first 18 years of his life he meant it yknow. like i do think that out of all the possible labels he's used, soulmates husbands arch enemies furniture who the fuck knows, best friends is amongst the most meaningful... if you never had a best friend and then met him and he stayed in that spot for fifteen years the fact that he's also the love of your life can maybe be just a bit of a bonus.

[itadooori]

how do you write a eulogy for someone who isn't dead yet?

(text is from a journal entry from TLOU pt 2)

[javierduffy]

different.

[thenocturnenarrator]

Why does my motivation kick in when winter break is ending :’)

Anyways, look at this two guys that aren’t doomed by the narrative at all

[xnocturnalreveriex]

Every time I leave the house I'm reminded why I hate humans.

[ewwww-what]

Just watched boys night. Will never be normal again.

[formulanni]

Alex Albon as The Hermit:

The Hermit suggests that you are in a phase of introspection where you are drawing your attention inwards and looking for answers within. You are in need of a period of inner reflection, away from the current demands of your position.

This is a call to embark on a journey of self-discovery, embracing our true spiritual self and inner wisdom.

Tag list: @st-leclerc @rubywingsracing @saviour-of-lord @three-days-time @the-wall-is-my-goal @albonoooo @ch3rubd0lls

[spacizia]

tfw the man you felt the most comfortable being yourself with is the worst person you could have met

[souenkun]

Takashi living the warm, full-of-love life that reiko couldn't have (as far as we know in the current canon) feels very much like the grief that dawns for children when they finally realized how much sacrifice their parents didn't always tell them just to give birth and raise them.

Like, technically speaking, reiko only gave takashi a world of problems by passing down the sight and the book of friends decades after her death, but takashi also grasped the wholesome and the awful parts of interacting with both humans and youkai from the memories she had left behind, scattered among all these eternal monsters she had defeated, leaving in them unintentional, but important life lessons for him to find later on in the future. If it weren't for all those societal rejections that reiko received from humans and the hardships from youkai that led her to start the book of friends, takashi wouldn't be able to avoid repeating her mistakes (and, consequently, could be just as comfortable with isolation like reiko was), let alone make the precious balance we now see him have in the present time, where he can make genuine connections with humans and youkai while also maintaining a balance to them. Do you get what I'm saying 💔

[aquato-family-circus]

what’s a busy bee to do when she doesn’t know how to find her flowers again

ID: A one page comic of Bob Zanotto and Cassie O’Pia having a conversation together.

Bob: Hey Cass, I was was just wonderin’…

Cassie: Hm?

Bob: Did you end up writing anything while we were out here?

Cassie: Oh— I always meant too, but I’d always be so exhausted after tending the hives.

Cassie: I finally cleaned my typewriter a month ago, and have so much more free time!

Cassie: But I still haven’t touched it since…

Bob: Are you scared you can’t do it anymore?

Bob: I’m sorry, I was blunt again.

Cassie: Perhaps… a little. But I think you’re right. Depression’s really kicked our butts, huh.

Bob: Oh don’t even tell me about it.

End ID.

[autisticlee]

I must know. i've been told by many people that it's normal to go months without talking to friends, I should get used to spending time alone, and other things like that. at the same time i'm told we are a social species and need social interaction and i'm "too isolated" and need to have "better friends" in my life because it's "not healthy" to spend months alone in my room without anyone to talk to (not by choice, I struggle to make and keep friends because autism/disability, but would like to have close amd consistent people in my life)

so I need to ask. how much do all of you interact with another person in a positive, meaningful way?

i need to add context so you know what i mean exactly:

by this I mean you have full and enjoyable conversations, hang out, talk on the phone, talk in dms, play games together, etc with another person you're close with in life online or in person (friends, family, partners, etc). this can include hanging out/talking with with a partner or roommate or family you live with because you enjoy hanging out or talking together. there was actively a choice to be around each other. if you have a partner/family/roommate you live with and enjoy interacting with each other daily on purpose, this counts as "daily." this is only about chosen interactions where you both want to interact with each other because you enjoy each other's company and choose to socialize together. where you're already close, or actively trying to get closer. where you feel loved and appreciated by the person and enjoy your time spent together.

as opposed to when you have a short passing interaction, like you interact with customers at work or small talk coworkers, have a conversation with a stranger, interact with parents or siblings just because you live together, interact with classmates just because you're in class together, and things like that. circumstantial conditions, basically. spending all your time closed off alone in your room with random forced interactions you don't particularly enjoy or choose. like a parent only talks to you because you left your room and walked past them. or a partner comes home from work and demands you make food and they go watch tv alone and go to bed alone (loveless marriage type thing). or anything similar doesn't count here. if you *only* have those type interactions then it counts as "never"

(this includes everyone in general in your life combined. do you interact positively with your partner every day but friends once a month? then answer "daily." do you have daily small talk with parents who mostly ignore or nag you, or talk about work with coworkers, classwork with classmates, but see your best friends once a month? then it's "once a month." if it depends, choose which one is the average each year. you can also leave a comment to explain it if you want)

((I hope I explained what I mean correctly! please reblog to get bigger sample size! my blog is too small to do it on my own! im very curious about this😭))